One week --->Lessons learned

Hi
...It's 1:15 AM and I'm sitting here thinking of what to inform my blogsville world. lol
I learnt a lot since the beginning of my vacation so I decided to share it with you all
Let me first of all note that some might make sense and some just really would not to whoever reads.....

- People move on, people die, life is not constant but that does not mean I would not live my forever till it is my last
- People say I've changed and it made me question myself until I realized I haven't changed I'm just finally coming into my own person I mean for crying out loud people I am not even 21 yet. This is finally me.
- I cant stand when people say I know you so I know what you are thinking. The honest truth is you don't know me. You know what I let you know.
-In life, when it comes to relationships I can't even vouch for my family members or so called friends because when you try to help them in thier relationships and you talk good about them, in the end they are still men or women. They tell you they love whoever but in reality all they really want to do is 'have sex' and this is why I have come to the conclusion that I would not help or plead for anyone in a relationship any longer
- There was a time when being a virgin was what the men wanted. Now, men don't want virgins. Isn't that a bitch? It's amazing how morals sort of go upside down. This leads to my next point
- Men these days are gradually making it hard for girls to remain virgins. It seems that the new rule is a virgin does not deserve any romantic kind of love whatsoever from the opposite sex. This is because once you utter your status they seem to kind of back off.
-There is always that one person who you feel like no matter how much you fall out, no matter how many times they try you, you still care deeply for them.
-Prayer is a very important part of life.
- Be happy everyday, always wake up happy!!!! :) It works wonders for the rest of the day!....

Good night bloggers or rather Good morning!
I hope this few pointers mean something to you like they do to me.

Purple Kiss3s

Music Addicts Anonymous

Hi!

Is there anything wrong when you wake up in the morning and all you want to do is fill your ears with a tune. it doesn't matter just a tune? Is there a problem when every note, every melody begins to sound ALIKE even though they are completely opposite? The truth is its not the notes or melodies that matter it's simply one's perception of things.
My usual greeting to the world goes like this, "Hi Everyone! My name is *blah blah* and I'm a music addict, shopaholic and shoe addict." Yes! I know this is the story of my life! lol! Lately though I'm a bit worried about my addictions. I can't go to sleep without listening to music. In the morning when I wake up thats the first thing I have to do or I'll have a bad day! Basically I have to listen to some kind of music every two hours if I dont I just get so irritated by everything around me. It's so bad that now all the genres of music have blended into one big genre for me. I'm at a point where the music is my life that I'm holding on to so dearly! And don't get me started on my other addictions but I think they can be kept under wraps since the music addiction is the issue lately.
I need to go on craiglist to find a music addict group maybe it will help :(
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A couple of friends and I are going on a vacation for two weeks. I must say this is the highlight of this month because as you all know I havent really been doing too good. I'm excited! time to go shopping, buy more hoes and more cd's! Oops! here I go again talking bout the loves of my life :)
I keep explaining to people that these are the things that keep me sane when everything seems to be falling apart. Am I the only one who feels this way?

Purple Kiss3s

Emotional Rollercoaster

So I thought I knew what I was blogging about but apparently not. I have been away from blogsville for a while. So where to start.
DISCLAIMER: This is a random blog! lol
I've been thinking so much lately so please excuse me if its all a bunch of gibberish if you know what I mean. I lost a friend last week Friday. It has been a tragic experience. I keep asking questions like why. I've cried, laughed, smiled but through it all I'm just numb. I don't know how to feel. Am I supposed to be mourning? Am i to be mad? These are the questions running through my mind. I can't feel nothing. I'm so used to acting strong. As I run around comforting everyone else, I'm breaking down inside. I'm hurting so bad. I did the same thing when my dad died. I was the comforter but no one comforted me. It makes me wonder when I leave this earth who will comfort every other person who is hurting?
I'm so torn at this point I'm literally loosing my mind. I see myself doing things realizing this life is too short. I'm scared... I guess that's a word I never use but I admit I'm scared. Scared for me and the people I love. I cant bear seeing anyone go through pain anymore. It hurts to see everyone tear up. My friend was a good person. He touched the heart of everyone who knew him. I will definitely miss him.

Seconds later.....
U know how they say there is someone and no matter what the person does to you, and no matter how much they hurt u, u cant be mad at them. When they call out for u, u run to be by their side. It's not that u are being a fool it is just that their is a bond, connection that can not be broken between u two. It doesn't matter how many other people you become close to or how many people you are considering building something with, they seem to always pop up and make the difference. I wonder what this is called? Well this is a brief hint into my life and my mind.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kEJipfru5E&feature=related