Memoirs of A teenage girl Pt. 2...

Okay most of you remember part 1.....So here is another one!....Another teenage girl!...u teenagers always have problems o!...lol

I promised myself never to love again....I swore that at least for my teenage years never again will i be caught in that kind of trap!...I guess I was wrong....I thought I could escape from this heart ache once again!....
Once again, The deed has been done in the sense that I'm repeating the same thing all over....They say once bitten, twice shy!..I guess it's different in my case...
I keep going back to the same thing more like the case of an abused wife!...It's not that I'm stupid...I just believe this time will be different...every time I believe it'll be different seems its worse than the last.
Wow!...I finally thought u were the one!...Wait! let me rephrase it I still think u r the one! Everyone I know thinks I'm stupid, everyone thinks I have a problem believing u!
The question is "Do I?"..
I'll never forget the first he hurt me so much....U swear u don't want to be like him...And U already act like him!...
Sometimes listening to my friends just might be right but once again I don't want to be like the abused wife who listens to her friends and ends up being terribly hurt again!...
U don't even make an effort to be here!...Not even a bit of u has been put into making this thing work!....I feel like a door without a key....like a face without a name...I feel like a child who has lost its way...I feel like a breath without the air...It seems everything is so incomplete!....
Maybe just maybe u added something to whatever this is supposed to be....I guess u started it and left it for me to finish....It's like a book without no ending!...the writers have to end it together bay...not just me!....Remember it has to be both of us...
Even though U r worth more than the ex- scum you are beginning to act like him in so many ways, it hurts so much!....I try so hard to hide my feelings I'm almost perfect at it....Half of the time U don't even understand what I'm going through...Deep down there bay I'm hurting!...I'm crying in there!..more like I'm ripping in half!...Sometimes it just seems like I'm wasting my time!...Sometimes I wonder if u r blind or more like deaf!...Can't u hear the hurt in my voice?!
Most of the time I feel like u have so much to say, u just don't know how to express yourself....Bay I don't need much from you I just need to know u care
I need to know u r as strong as i am...I'm sure u r not!...Everyday I pray U don't listen to your friends sometimes when they discourage u!....that's why I pray for u to be strong....The funniest part of it all is U don't even know u act the way u do!
Bay U really don't have to worry though!....No matter what people say, despite all your flaws...and funny enough no matter how much U hurt me...It seems like I just love u more!....They might not understand but everyone is on the outside looking in!...No matter what they say bay Imma stay loving u!...can't u see thats why u r my bay and not my baby!....

Love,
The Girl who wishes you loved her as much as she does you!....